DISCOVER COUNTRY MAMA LIFE

The writing bug hasn’t hit me in quite some time. I’ve felt the itch now and again but finding the time is another thing right now…homeschool, chickens, dogs, reselling, karate, and horse riding lessons all keep my time pretty wrapped up. Today though Noah deserves a moment of my time, some reflection of the past written down in memory of him. I think about him often… every day. It has been eight years since the day he died; he would be seven years old if he had survived an

In 2011 I married into a giant family that seemed to be everything that I had hoped for. Christian, down to earth, hardworking,...

#1 90% are abused by a family member or someone they trust. https://www.lifecrisiscenter.org/program/Child-Abuse.htm #2 Jimmy Hinton is a...

Peace I leave with you, my peace I give you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them...

I was honored to be able to share my story on the Sons of Patriarchy podcast. Even if you don't agree with everything said on the podcast...

An open letter to the woman who married him knowing he ra***d a child. Yes, he was 'sweet' to me too. Yes, he never got mad. Yet,...

Thirty Five I’ve been around for thirty five years. It has been quite a ride so far. I’ve had my share of pain and heartache. I’ve...

I’m living a life I never prepared for or expected. I’ve lost four babies in four years. Each child and loss is burned into my memory. I...

It is a hard road to go down sometimes. To remember all the ways someone has wronged you. They well up and drown out any good that may...

It's been 3 1/2 years since my ex husband and I separated. I went into the marriage so naive and blind. He came across as kind of sweet...

Grief is something that we are all acquainted with on some level. Just the fact that we are human comes with some knowledge and...

“ Please, God not today” was my prayer on the 1st of May. I had been having cramps and spotting for about a week, barely there but...

Just a Few Serious Questions Why would a “mother” not want to know who sexually abused, and raped her child? Why would brothers sexually...

We love this creamy chocolate pudding. Here is a recipe that makes 5-6 cups depending on how big your avocados are! This is definitely...

We were driving home from his mom’s house. We pulled into the long winding driveway in the blue grey minivan that wasn’t quite built for...

The last 3-4 years have been quite a wild ride of growing and learning as a person and as a Christian. Some of the story has been...

12-19-19 Just over a year ago on December 19, 2019 I had my second miscarriage. It was my 5th pregnancy and second loss. I will get into...

November 30, 2017 I’m not sure if I’m ready to write this. I started this story 4 days after I lost Noah, and it has currently been 6...

The world was spinning around me. I could feel it moving under my feet, I felt like I was underwater. It was like some horror movie that was now my life. I was walking as fast as I could barefoot to the barn. My mind was racing, everything that I thought I knew was broken and gone. H ot rage and cool resolve wrestled together but deep down I already knew that thi n gs would n ever be the same. The great beaut i ful old gray barn cam e up on my left and I followed the g